Hello Everyone:

Sorry I havent written in awhile, I have been sick, plus, depressed.  It seems that everyone has some type of depression, yet, mine is particularly bad.  I know I bring it upon myself, being a transgendered and all, but, doctors need to find a way to help people with this problem.  They prescribe medication such as prozac, paxil, zoloft, but honestly, medication cant help someone that is going to be depressed and has issues that they cant work thru.  I find that my issues are much deeper than just being a TS...it is handling the abuse as a child, the secludedness of growing up, acceptance of myself into adulthood, and why I am who I am....I realize I cant dwell on these things, they will eat me up....however, it is hard not to think about them.  People are always bringing up problems, and cause others to feel worse than maybe they feel.  Why do we do that???  We, as humans, must join together, and help eachother out, if we are feeling bad, try and help someone else that is also feeling bad...maybe it will help you as well as them.  Leslie and I talk daily, and she is always trying to cheer me up, because she knows how difficult it is for me.  She makes me feel accepted and welcomed, no matter how badly things are going with her.  And, I try and return the gesture to her.  Men are especially bad with showing their feelings, or showing feelings to others.  They think that if they do, they will look like they are a sissy, a girl...whatever!!!!!  Men, take it from women, listen to them, and understand, dont try and be a macho man....even the Village People were gay, so whats the big deal!!!!  I mean, why do they thing showing compassion for another is feminine, or gay....it is being a human being, understand another human beings problems....and trying to help them.  And when your wife, girlfriend, or friend is talking to you about something you may not enjoy, my gosh, listen to them....learn from them...you cant fix everything, so dont try....sometimes we just like to have a person just listen to us and to be there for us in times of need....Sorry for rambling...I just want people to try and help people that might be different, depressed, or just in need of a friend...women understand this, men have no clue...so ladies, if you want me to talk with your man about how to become more in touch with themselves, let me know...I would be more than happy to help you...I know I wish I had someone that would have helped the people around me as I grew up....

Well, enough of that...I met a man recently and I really like...He is adorable, cute, sensative, and a great lover!!!!  I didnt think I could actually find someone that would have these attributes....a man that actually opens the door for me when we go out!!!!!  But I need everyones help....this man is hung up on the fact that I am TS, we live a distance away, and that he constantly wants sex, when I want intimacy....how can I express to him this....we talk about things, yet, it just doesnt seem to sink in....so, if anyone has any suggestions, let me know...and if there is something that YOU want me to write about, let me know too!!!!  TTFN, take care, and love to all!!!!

Jenn